Love is all you need
I had deleted my past two posts, because of the subject matter that they dealt with, that being the birth of a baby boy that we thought would be ours. I told of how we were filled with excitment when the call came at 2 in the morning last tuesday and how we spent the entire day trying to give our support and strength to the birth mom as the contractions and labor hit her. And how Karen held her leg as the baby came fourth into the world and how so proud I was of my wife for I would not have been able to do that...without passing out... and of how we watched the baby as it was cleaned up and watched as he recieved his first bathing and first feeding and how we were the first to hold him in our arms (not including the nurses) and how our hearts filled with such joy, how I could not contain my feelings when I looked into my wife's eyes when tears of joy came.
And now I will write of the following days and of the final moments when our case worker came to our office and informed us that this woman who's last words to us were..."Don't worry, this baby is yours" had changed her mind and decided to parent the baby herself. She had recieved another call from her husband and he decided that they were to keep this child, which is of course their right, it is after all their child, but did he know of the heartbreak and the tears that this decision would create, and the emptiness we would feel, and our lose of faith in man and god alike, and did he know the pain and suffering my dear wife has had to endure all these years since cancer robbed us of a chance to create life ourselves. Why did they wait so long to make this decision, they had nine long months to come to this, why were we forced into the nightmare, what did we do wrong that we should be so punished time and again.
I am the rock for Karen to secure to as the winds rip at her soul, I am the arms that hold her as she cries upon my chest, I am the gentle kiss that reminds her that she is indeed loved by many, including our dear, dear friends, who's hearts are breaking too, for they love us so much and we love them. It is with all this love that we move on, and hope that the wait is not so long and the pain can subside and that someday we will be parents and have a child to love oh so dearly.
Our friends Gary and Nancy had just experianced this weeks ago and we held each other praying that this would not happen to us. We wanted so much to reach out and tell them how sorry we felt for them, but we did not because I guess we were afraid it could happen to us. This has happened to others we know and they have moved on in their lives and a child has come to them in time, and I hope that this will happen to us and to loving, caring people like Gary and Nancy too , and that it happens soon for us all.
Tonight we will spend time with our friends and we will laugh and I'm sure we will cry, but throughout we will love, and as one very wise man said "Love is all you need."
I had deleted my past two posts, because of the subject matter that they dealt with, that being the birth of a baby boy that we thought would be ours. I told of how we were filled with excitment when the call came at 2 in the morning last tuesday and how we spent the entire day trying to give our support and strength to the birth mom as the contractions and labor hit her. And how Karen held her leg as the baby came fourth into the world and how so proud I was of my wife for I would not have been able to do that...without passing out... and of how we watched the baby as it was cleaned up and watched as he recieved his first bathing and first feeding and how we were the first to hold him in our arms (not including the nurses) and how our hearts filled with such joy, how I could not contain my feelings when I looked into my wife's eyes when tears of joy came.
And now I will write of the following days and of the final moments when our case worker came to our office and informed us that this woman who's last words to us were..."Don't worry, this baby is yours" had changed her mind and decided to parent the baby herself. She had recieved another call from her husband and he decided that they were to keep this child, which is of course their right, it is after all their child, but did he know of the heartbreak and the tears that this decision would create, and the emptiness we would feel, and our lose of faith in man and god alike, and did he know the pain and suffering my dear wife has had to endure all these years since cancer robbed us of a chance to create life ourselves. Why did they wait so long to make this decision, they had nine long months to come to this, why were we forced into the nightmare, what did we do wrong that we should be so punished time and again.
I am the rock for Karen to secure to as the winds rip at her soul, I am the arms that hold her as she cries upon my chest, I am the gentle kiss that reminds her that she is indeed loved by many, including our dear, dear friends, who's hearts are breaking too, for they love us so much and we love them. It is with all this love that we move on, and hope that the wait is not so long and the pain can subside and that someday we will be parents and have a child to love oh so dearly.
Our friends Gary and Nancy had just experianced this weeks ago and we held each other praying that this would not happen to us. We wanted so much to reach out and tell them how sorry we felt for them, but we did not because I guess we were afraid it could happen to us. This has happened to others we know and they have moved on in their lives and a child has come to them in time, and I hope that this will happen to us and to loving, caring people like Gary and Nancy too , and that it happens soon for us all.
Tonight we will spend time with our friends and we will laugh and I'm sure we will cry, but throughout we will love, and as one very wise man said "Love is all you need."
posted by Richard @ 1:48 PM
